okayyy now i hate myself.. just disregard everything i said okay its not important. rawr. [[hits self]] i wish i wasnt so stupid sometimes. i know what i am and i know what im not people need to jus realize it not tryin to make something better than what it is...

and dan no i wasnt trying to make you feel bad i was jus angry :[ please dont take it badly. im really hoping you understand and all....yea...

i miss amber. :[ yes i do. she helps me out a lot and i can soo relate to her. this makes me sad that i cant see her hardly ever. and i miss april too. lots. yep im gonna go now tho. cuz im a loser like that....

**okay davey im NOT mad at you i DONT want to break up with you thats not it at all. i just think you deserve someone better thats all...i dunno...but i do love you..more than anything...i dunno...im going to sleep. gnite.**