okay. sorry i havent written in uhm..all of ever it seems like. rawr okay lots have been happening. uhm...hmm...monday was my 1st psychiatrist appointment..[[i dunno if i mentioned that in my last entry]] and i dont like her..i dont trust her so i jus sit there and stare out the window..for an HOUR! okay thats a long time to stare at a pine tree...er...anyways. then tuesday i was still having miagrane[s] and it got so bad i was throwin' up :[ yea ouch. so i went to the doctor and they put me on this medicine called midrine and it said to take max. 8 in a 24 hour period. well i took 3 before i went to sleep then i woke up hurting worse so my mom gave me 2 and then an hour later gave me 1 more. well just my luck i happen to be allergic to midrine. and i found out about this yesterday after having severe allergic reactions. the normal pulse rate is 80 and mine was a little over 150. okay 150 beats a minute is a lot. and i couldnt breathe at all so yea...i thought i was gonna die. well obviously i didnt. and i jus happened to make it at school today. but everytime i stand up i almost completely black out and i still cant breathe it seems :/ ah well. i have my neurologist appointment in january...so i guess i hafta suffer for a month :/ rahr.

hmm okay what else can i write about...

OH YEA! this is me and davey's 3 months :D. woot woot. yea it seems longer to me tho...odd. but i got ready really fast so i could call him and tell him that i love him before he went to school. well i got done around 7 and i could talk to him at least for 5 minutes when mom just happened to be on the phone :/ by the time i called it was busy at his house :[ ah well. its the thought that counts i guess...he knows how much i love him hopefully [[which is a LOT!!!]] :] uhm yea well im gonna go now...write me notes...yea..uhm bye.

i love you davey. more than anything. youve made my life so much better. i dunno where i would be w/o you right now....thanx for always being there for me. [[psst...i love you!]]