i hafta be on anti-depressants :/ and im gonna throw those stupid pills in the trash where they belong. im not depressed im just sad. and not talkitive. well according to my psychologist im severely emotionally damaged. screw her. she's only been w/ me for two visits. and only talked to me for 10 minutes. she told me [[w/o my parents there]] that she thinks my dad is a huge problem with whats wrong w/ me "emotionally" cuz he doesnt seem to be sympathetic towards me at all and he doesnt really seem to care about how i feel about anything. and i completely agree w/ her. the whole 50 minutes outta 60 minutes we were there dad was non stop telling her how i was imperfect. this ofcourse made me super depressed. im supposively there so i can feel better when i always feel worse. like to the point of tears, and pills worse....

...but then mommy took me shopping to cheer me up and we went to book stores and drank lotsa coffee and then ran around the parking lot screaming "the monkey's on fire" cuz we're losers like that. then we went to taco bell where we spent over $20 on just us...wow im so full right now...

i wish davey was on but no he's at carolina pottery with his mom. :[ i miss him lots and i need to talk to him cuz he makes me feel so much better. and yea...

i bought heather a ryoni kenshin book. or somethin like that. its anime and stupid but i know she's obsessed and its usually $20 for the volume 1 and it was only $7.50 on sale. today was the end of the sale so yeah. that works. me and mom are going shopping tomorrow.

woot tomorrow i only hafta be in school for 2 hours! thats right 2 hours biotch! :) and im gonna go in my PJ's cuz im a loser like that and yea. im gonna fail this exam yes i am. cuz im a failure or so it seems. but yeah im gonna go and wait for davey to get on or sleep...yea sleep sounds good...hmm....