okay. i got up at 9:30 and took my US History exam. i failed by 1 point. gr on me. well i walked out and melissa, paul, and a whole bunch of other people were sitting down eating lunch so i did too since bailey was paying for me. katy gave me some glittery stuff for my other xmas gift. i feel bad cuz i didnt give her anything and she surprised me two different days w/ two gifts. but yea. i love them too and i love her :P yes well then paul surprised me w/ cookies :] they are yummy. yep. it made me feel all special. so i ate those after my lunch so he wouldnt think i didnt like them or anything. well after 45 mintues went by me and heather went outside cuz dad was out there. and yea. melissa wants me to call her so i guess i will soon. and paul said he got my number from some mysterious person so he's gonna call me...uhm okay...well whatevah.

yea then i come home and yet again fuck everything up in the relationship between me and davey. i hate myself. its weird usually its because i say something wrong well this time its because i didnt say anything at all. IM SO FUCKING CONFUSED. alright just because i dont wanna talk about something doesnt mean i dont love you davey...or that something is wrong between us. cuz i really really do love you...but maybe thats not enough :/