im now really scared/worried/confused. mixed feelings i guess. reading daveys entry scares me kinda...i dont think he realizes how much i love him..the whole "what if" thing...i dont like it. because it worries me. i mean i guess im not giving it my all to show him how much i love him and thats why he does the whole "what if" thing. and maybe im letting him down i dunno...i hate this tho cuz now i feel like crying..but im not going to. maybe. i dunno im just gonna go...