i have never been so ready to leave this place in my life.

my mom is only nice to me when she's drugged.
i will tell her something nice that she said while we are fighting and she tells me she doesn't remember saying that.
it's sad because i take the nice things she says to heart.

my brother is nice when he can watch me play diablo II. that's it.
any other time he is doing normal brotherly things to annoy me.
i don't really put too much thought into it since it's normal for him.

my sister cries all of the time so she can get her way.
it drives me insane!
she cried and dad gave her an hour extra on the phone.
dave is sitting there waiting for me to call and it will be at 11pm til i can call him.

my dad does nothing.
he called the GED place once today and i asked him if he asked those people all of these questions and he "forgot".
i believed him until i realized he watched tv all day long instead of calling to find out the answers to the questions.
i am here for absolutely no reason at all.
my dad is holding me back and i think that he realizes it.

i love being with dave.
he makes all of this anxiety and stress go away just by hugging me.
he really is a wonderful boyfriend.
i hope that we never fight again.
that's a crazy thing to hope since we plan on spending forever together but hey it's not too unreasonable.

time to go get my bawling sister off of the phone.
i bet she's get another hour if she slits her wrists.