i must be the most forgiving person ever.
i am still in love with the kid even when he hurts me the most.
i get angry when people tell me to break up with him and freak out.
i'm not for certain if this is love anymore.

i secretly love surprises and i was on the edge of my seat last night.
i didn't feel like i was wanted beside him because everytime i would kiss him it would be a tiny peck kiss.
one of those that say "okay now i've kissed you. so there" kinda kiss.
i miss the old dave. ;[
he used to update after he saw me and tell everyone how great it felt.
it seemed like he couldn't wait to get rid of me yesterday and yesterday meant the world to me.

my expectations of having someone love me isn't as high anymore.
i'm not deserving enough to even hope for something like that anymore.

how lame am i to cry while reading his old journal entries?
my heart hurts a lot right now. :[
lame.