i only got to talk to dave online and the old feeling of a long distant relationship poured over me.
i hate that feeling.
i absolutely do.
although it will probably be great for our sex life. ;x
i found out that he probably wont be here until friday.
i know that i won't make it that long.
i will be so upset if they arent back on saturday.
i have some things planned for us that i hope dave will like.
i just miss him.
i can't imagine my life without him.
he is just that wonderful.

i feel alone here in kingsport.
i don't think that amber wants to be around me anymore and it makes me sad.
i want to move into an apartment in JC.
i always thought that it would be so cool to live with amber and morgan in an apartment but i doubt that they would want me to. :/
i am stuck here with absolutely nothing to do and i am scared.
i need a job desperately.
i am honestly considering going back to pizza hut.
i don't want to.
i want to move to johnson city with anyone so that i can get my life on track.
maybe if i find a way to get a down payment on an apartment i can work really really hard and pay it back plus my rent.
dave would be able to see me often without complaining.
i would have a ride and not need a car.
i won't have to feel out of place here.
i feel like they don't want me to be here.
i cook and it ends up turning out horrible so i waste their food and they get mad i'm sure.
i am a horrible kid i tell you.
i think that i am going to go and cut my hair some.

i hate distance.
i hate it.
i love dave though.
with all of my heart i do i do. :)