i am so relieved and amused almost.
i think it's funny to be called a hypocrit by someone who thinks that they arent.
i dont think that there is a single way to avoid becoming one.
i like how it's okay for amber to bitch at me but when i defend myself it's not okay.
when i tell her stuff about morgan and she doesnt believe me.
i find that to be humorous.
i can't wait until she finds out herself what all morgan has done.
like she walks in while he is doing it.
i bet she will feel like a bitch then.
i don't blame morgan for doing what he has been doing.
how else would he be able to cope?
i have vowed to never tell her what he has told me.
i started out with the smoking 2 cigs. and she flipped.
yeah right like i'm telling her.
i support morgan completely now.

morgan is a really good friend though.
i wish that he would stand up for himself.
he deserves so much better.
i think it's funny that amber got mad at dave for being an ass and would kick him.
if dave kicked her for being a bitch she would have a broken knee cap.
she is worse than dave could ever be.
i see her apologizing and i just have to laugh.
she thinks that her texan friends would be so understanding and they would be for a while.
like i was.
then they would get bitched at for not knowing what to do at all times and they will forget about her.
she will be left alone and i honestly dont care anymore.
i feel better about myself because i have friends to fall back on that genuinely care.
i tell them what has been going on and they support my decision to not be around her ever.
this stupid shit she is pulling is high school shit.
she swears that she is in the real world.
if she is going to cause a fucking fit for hours over a contact how the hell will she get an apartment?
i also think it's funny because she puts herself as the victim.
she puts herself in situations because she sets the mind set.
like when she said "i will be a chain smoker if i start. WILL. willwillwill."
hahaha. i almost bursted out laughing.
you will be if you are dedicated to be one.
you are to blame if you are.
she says how dave uses me as his scapegoat.
i am hers as well.
she will get mad at morgan or dan and take it out on me and me only.
she will fall back on "we have nothing in common".
okay..so?
if you want a person who is exactly in common with you go find a 5 year old.
i want to be friends with people who have different tastes and styles so that i can learn from them.
i dont want to give a person a fucking quiz to see if they are equal to my standards.

she has changed from freshman year by a lot.
she has even from the summer.
we were both there for each other.
if she is going to say that i wasnt then i will say that she wasnt.
she said that she would take me to georgia but never did.
also i wouldnt want to be with her that long in a car because she would crash.
she is dedicating her life to be a fuck up.
she doesnt have a stupid disorder she just seeks attention.

i am honest and i wont go back on anything that i have said.
i feel relieved.
i find it funny how she goes on about how she has other friends but a lot of them dont plan anything with her because she is full of herself and no one wants to be around her.
she only hung out with me and morgan.
morgan is forced to because she goes to his house and makes him be with her.
it's funny because she never actually waits to see if he wants to be with her and calls her up.
she forces him to because she has to force him to.
when your fiance doesnt even want to be around you..you need to realize that.
not force him to because you have control.
she is a controlling girlfriend and i hope that he makes the right decision and dumps her.
i no longer care about her.
it doesnt matter that i dont care about her because she cares about herself enough for the both of us.